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Catching up with Brad

The realization that I hadn't blogged publicly in a while is almost annoying.  It's not hat I haven't had the urge to, but between work being hectic and the fact that every time I read my last blog so I could continue I wound up thinking about Mika then I couldn't remember what I was going to write about in the first place.  So, here it is January 1st 2009 and I haven't written publicly in over five months.   There is so much that has gone on.  So get ready, because this is probably gonna be another epic Brad Blog.  Maybe I'll put in subheadings so you can decide what of it you want to read.  Yeah, that's an idea.

The Little Ones

September was a rough month for all of us here in the house.  Mogwai and Mogley couldn't seem to comprehend where Mika had gone and unfortunately neither one of us speak feline so we didn't have the vocabulary to allow them to comprehend what actually happened.  It was obvious Mogley was searching the house and calling her with every sound he could muster.  Meanwhile our clowter was a cat short.  Sebastian went missing for about two weeks.  We knew something happened when she didn't show up on our kitchen windwo sill to self pet her self on the screen and talk gossip with Mogley. 

She finally showed up on the deck with her family one morning.  There was a problem though, she had no equilibrium.  Here was this amazing graceful cat that could just a couple weeks prior bound and run not to mention climb the tree on the side of the house as easy as I could walk, now she could not keep her back end standing.  It was very sad and frustrating for her and us.  What could we do, we grabbed her and allowed our vet to figure it out.  Seven-hundred dollars, two nights at the vet, two weeks of isolation and oral medication later, we decided to see if she wold be compatible with our family.  No such luck.  She just didn't like Mogwai.  All he wanted to do was play and for some reason she almost didn't know how to play.  He scared her so much a few times she lost all control of her bowels.  Yech, what a mess.  She seemed only happy when I would carry her around or was put next to me on the couch or the bed, otherwise she would find a spot, usually under something, and she wouldn't move for hours.

After a month of this, I decided that she was not happy here with us.  One day while her family was eating on the porch I put her outside and left the door open for her.  She had a choice, come back in or return to her life outside.  She waited there for about half an hour when she finally realized that the choice was hers.  She then bounded off the deck and didn't return even to eat for about a week.  Only difference is now she still knows we will spend time petting her if she wants.

I didn't realize how much I missed having a girl around.  I know, I know some of you are thinking what is the differnce?  Well, after having boys and girls, there is a big difference.  Can I explain it?  Not really, it's an aura that surrounds a female.  It's lighter and brighter then a males.  The males are more playful and seem to be a little more independednt.  Not to mention, they are more into wrestling and pouncing then my girls were.

I don't think it was 20 minutes after Sebastien left that Kim said that if I wanted a girl then we should look for one.  I took that as permission and immediately used my favorite tool, the internet and 3 weeks letter Mikali had entered our lives and our family.

Mikali (Mi-Kah-lee) has been a ray of bright light into our lives.  No kitten or cat can ever take the place of Mali or Mika, just different, and she is very different.  Mogwai had taken the role of Alpha since Mali had left us even though Mogely was older, but when Mikali entered the home, she took control immediately even at 10 weeks.  After a period of adjustment now they all play and lay together like they were born from the same litter.  I almost do not need TV anymore because they are all the entertainment I need.

Sebastien and Me

Mogwai and Mikali

The Job

As I have written before I was hired by JP Morgan in January 2008 as a consultant to head up a huge program that contained over a thousand projects to move clients from older system platforms to upgraded and more secure operating platforms.  In late October with everything gong on in the market and all the mayhem about the bailouts and insecurity, JP Morgan cut the rates of every hired consultant by 15%.  It's business, it happens especially in this market.  Not that it wouldn't affect me,  It would, HUGE! I talked to my boss and told him I couldn't really afford to take that kind of hit.  He basically said we had two options, one; he could try and ask for an exception to the policy, or two; there was paperwork already in the works to offer me employment on his team permanently.  It was easier to expedite my employment, so after a little red tape and memos of my expertise and experience being forwarded up the chain to one level below the CEO, I am now an employee of JP Morgan with a title of Vice President of Core Technologies Client Service in Treasury Services & Securities.  Cool huh? 

Of course it came with better insurance and a lot more responsibility.  I thought this is going to be great, I was spending 55-60 hours a week at work and because I took a rate cut at the begininng of the project so by working the extra hours I made up the difference.  If I took a day off, I just didn't get paid.  Now it doesn't matter.  I get the same amount whether I work 40 or 60 hours.  I thought awesome I don't have to work all those hours anymore.  Yeah, it didn't matter I am still working those hours if not more.  The only thing I can say is I do really enjoy my job and I really enjoy working with my team.

Shows

I have been involved in two shows recently.  In August and September it was the return of Gypsy with Gross Indecensy:  The Three Trials of Oscar Wilde.  I did the graphics for it and some assistant directing.  The show turned out really well considering there was a very consolidated rehearsal schedule and some inexperience.  Gypsy performed at the Ritz Ybor and has since become the resident company.  I hope to be involved with the upcoming shows in front and behind the curtain.

I also performed in Damn Yankees at the Tampa Bay Performing Arts Center as well as two weeks on tour.  It was a great experience with some wonderful frends new and old.  Like Whorehouse in the begining of the year we went up and downt eh east coast of florida to many acitve retirement homes.  Unfortuately the contract with the theratre stated the time limit had to remain under 2 hours including intermission.  Cuts were made on the fly which made it even more fun and challanging.

I was able to see a few shows as well.   My parents came in town for Christmas and I took them to see Defending the Cavemen at TBPAC.  This was a one-man show about defending the actions of men withint relationships.  It played on Broadway for about 3 years and has been touring the coutnry for a while.  All I can say is that for 90 minutes I laughed my ass off.  Even my Mother who has a very strict laugh clause within her biology came out with cramps in her cheeks.  I highly reccoment it if you see it around.

The next day for their birthdays we went to Ruth Eckerd Hall to see Avenue Q.  There is no hiding the fact, I love this show.  It is one of my favorite new comedies.  I usually describe it as Sesame Street for Adults.  I saw this both on Broadway with the original cast and a touring show that came through TBPAC.  Both shows I laughed as if I saw for the first time.  While the Ruth Eckerd show was good and it even had cast members from the last time I saw it, it was not the same.  Which really disappointed me, not just because my parents where there, but it took something away from it.  No one was off key or missed lines, or anything it was just the pacing was a lot slower and it took from the energy of it.  My Mom laughed but I really expected that if she laughed as hard as she did for Defending the Caveman I really expected her to really go crazy for Avenue Q, but she didn't.  When she and my Dad asked me how it compared I explained how I felt.  They said they really enjoyed it, but when I played them the soundtrack they understood immediately.  Of course being their son has been involved with theatre for over 25 years and they themselves have season tickets to theatres in Chicago they are somwhat educated.

Last night, we went and attended the national tour of Spring Awakening at TBPAC.  All I could say was this show was GENIUS!!!  The way the simplistic set was lit from so many different angles with so many different colors using neon bars and very little special affects.  The cast was amazing and the transitions were seamless.  The best part was the story was revelent, the songs were different and it was completely deconstructed.  The cast wore body mics for the dialougue and then pulled out hand held mics for the songs.  This did two things, one; each mic was engineered for thier design and two; it made the transisiton from diaglogue to music so the reality of the story stayed in tact.  The numbers were obviously dreams and thoughts.  All I can say is GO SEE IT!!  It was amazing.

With all of the shows I have seen outside of Broadway I think I have come to the conclusion that the only way to see a touring show is to catch the first tour.  It seems to become routine after that and the casts turnover to quick for them to become cohesive.  Just my opinion, take it or leave it.

Family

Speaking of my Dad, I have mentioned in past episodes that he had cancer a year or so ago.  A rare type that left him with muscle and lymph nodes missing from his right leg.  Except for the adema he was dong great, until September.  It turns out the radiation had soften the bone in his hip and he ended up breaking it.  The only corse of action was a replacement.  Well, he got through it and again except for the adema, he is back on the golf course again.  Actually when they came down for Christmas we played at Northdale and had a great time.  He still beat me and I have two good legs.  Crap!!!

That's all I can think of at the moment.  I am not sure everyone wants to read all of this, but it was good to get it off my mind and on the site.

Happy New Year!!  May 2009 bring you love, health peace, and success!!

-Brad

"There is no day but today.  Forget regret this life is yours to miss" - Jonathon Larson

All things life interrupted

My last blog was a little disinheriting.  I lost my Mika.  I keep saying to myself that she is now running around with her sister and two uncles, but this weekend I lost it.  I guess I never had the chance to process it.  I kept myself busy as much as possible.  I went to work the next day and dove in and focused, and the weekend I stayed as busy as possible.  Kim processed last weekend.  I knew she needed her alone time but I guess I wasn't ready.  This weekend she is at work, so I am by myself.  I woke up yesterday and looked over at her night stand and her box is there.  I didn't even realize that Kim went and picked up her ashes.  As soon as I saw it, I lost it.  Tears filled my eyes, and all I could remember was the weeks after picking her up from the cattery 14 years ago.

Mika was so beautiful when we picked her up at 10 weeks.  She was so tiny I put her in my shirt pocket.  She would find me every night and fall asleep on my chest.  After a week when she didn't seem to grow, we took her to the vet and found she was harboring two parasites.  We nursed her back to health and she started growing like a weed.  Unfortunately, she was traumatized by us giving her medicine so she never did sleep on my chest again.  She became this skittish cat that would only be petted when she wanted comforting.  She did get better as the years went on, but she remained tightly wound until she knew you.  She loved her sister Mali though.  Any chance, she got she would curl up next to her.  Mali would tolerate it for a while, but then she would usually take off.  Mali was the alpha and knew it.

A few weeks ago, Mali started losing weight.  She didn't act any differently other than staying in her box a little longer than usual.  We did  see her eat, but I noticed when she would come on the bed for her nightly TLC I could feel her ribs.  That was how we diagnosed Mali with cancer, so I of course was frightened.  Kim took her to the vet and we found out she lost a tooth and had the roots just hanging out in her mouth.  They became infected, and the vet put her on antibiotics prior to surgery.  It went just as expected.  The medication extinguished the infection and the surgery capped the hole in her mouth.  She began to eat like a horse and she took her medicine without any issues.  She even started playing with her little brother.

On Wednesday, August 13 she went to the beauty parlor, the groomer, and according to Doug, her stylist, she did not act any different than usual.  Just to give some background, Doug is the only known person I know that was able to pick her up without her crying for help.  She really loved him and he was fond of her.  On this day, everything was going well, so we thought.  This groomer was highly investigated prior to us using them.  We do that with vets, and groomers.  (This should be no surprise since we do not have children.  Our cats are our children.)  The pets are individually checked on every 10-15 minutes.  I guess Doug went to check on Mika and she was flopped over on her side.  She usually does not do this at the groomer so he was a little concerned so he opened up the cage and she wasn't breathing.  He picked her up and ran her over to the animal hospital a couple of blocks away.  Another associate immediately called Kim and told her and of course she dropped everything and high-tailed it over to the animal hospital, and actually got stopped by a cop on the way.  (No ticket, the cop understood.)

At the animal hospital they intubated her and brought her back.  She looked to be fine, and then she coded again.  Kim called me and I also sped to the animal hospital as well from Brandon.  They brought her back a second time, but she was brain dead.  Kim wanted me to be able to say goodbye, but when she coded the third and last time, she told them to let her go.  I didn't make it.  I got there in record time, but when I rushed into the room she was covered in a towel.  Kim was holding her and petting her.  She was gone.  I completely lost it.  She was getting better and then suddenly she was gone.  I didn't know what to do, I just picked her lifeless body up from the table and held her.

 She was my Mika, the one who would only get her TLC if I was on the bed.  The one who cried at the door of our condo in DC when I was left for training, or when I got sent here.  She slept in my shoes when I wasn't around.  I am just as lost as last April when Mali's light was extinguished.  My heart hurts, my appetite is next to nothing and the only thing that brings me out of it is work.

Anyway, so that's the story.  I am not sure any of you actually wanted to read about it, but of course I do not do this for other people.  Well not most of the time.

Love, Life, Peace and Success!!

"Perhaps they are not stars, but rather openings in heaven where the love of our lost ones pours through and shines down upon us to let us know they are happy." - Eskimo Proverb

And then there were two

I can't believe she's gone.

Mika Minus
June 26, 1994 - August 13, 2008

I will miss you. 
I know you are now with your sister and that is a good thing.
I love you.

A Fairy Tale

Once upon a time...isn't that how all fairy tales should start?  Well, I was witness to one of the most beautiful and heart warming fairy tales this past weekend.  I was honored with the privilege to stand up at my cousin's wedding.

Now by standing up, it usually means a best man or one of the groomsmen right?  Well, my cousin being the unique member of the family he is, decided that all seven of the groomsmen had the official title of Best Man or Best Men as it were.  I asked him how he came up with that idea, he told me that everyone of the guys were very important in his life at one point or another.  He couldn't decide.  However, as the one and only family member actually standing up I was put in the position in the ceremony as best man, but we all new that was the only reason.

The wedding weekend had three events, the rehearsal dinner, the actual wedding and Sunday Morning Brunch.  The rehearsal dinner was more of a roasting.  The poor bride got roasted something awful but her friends and family, but she also got a lot of praise.  We started with a quick rehearsal and then got down to business.   I also was privileged to be the MC of the affair which was a pure blast.  I called up the speakers, roasted my cousin a little, told some off the wall jokes while awaiting technical difficulties with a DVD presentation and just plain had a great time.  The food was amazing and everyone was smiling and laughing.  It was held at a place called Pinstripes in Northbrook, Illinois and it had Bocce ball.  Don't ask me what Bocce ball is, we were having too much fun to even think about it.  Basically I found that my Aunt and Uncle know how to pull off a great party.

The next day was the wedding and when I look back at the experience all I can say is WOW!!  As one of the 'Best Men', I arrived a couple hours early for pictures.  (Yes, in a Jewish Wedding, it does not matter that the bride and groom see each other prior.)  The crew at Chicago Botanic Gardens were putting the Chupa together and the bride, Lisa, looked incredible and Eric, the groom, looked as happy as I have ever seen him.  Smiles from ear to ear.  They started taking pictures and a thunderstorm came in and rocked the tent.  The crew had to move all the chairs and the chupa with lightning speed and I saw the wedding planner turn white with worry.  I tried to calm her down by telling her it was actually a good thing that it was raining.  It was luck for the marriage.  Yeah, it didn't help.  It cleared up for a while and we took some amazing shots around the gardens against backdrops of water and different types of foliage.  The two photographers were a lot of fun.  Still, thunderstorms kept passing through and between that and all of the different pictures this was the only time I saw Lisa get a little frazzled, but when it was over and we all went inside for the signing of the Ketubah she was all smiles again.

The Ketubah signing was wonderful with the Rabbi all smiles and educating us on the history of the Jewish marriage contract.  The Bride and Groom sign, of course, the parents and two witnesses.  Then it is framed and put on an asile under the chupa for the ceremony. 

When it was time to line up for the ceremony, we noticed, the wind died down, the sun came out and scene for the wedding was, well....perfect.  The guests were seated on cushioned chairs, the flowers on the chupa were highlighted in sunlight and everyone just looked radiant.  We all walked out so proud and ecstatic Eric and Lisa were joining together that the smiles were involuntary.

Six of the guys were out side of the chupa on stage right and I was underneath along with my aunt and uncle.  Lisa's sisters were underneath stage left with her parents and the other five women just outside the chupa.  Obviously, the Rabbi was center underneath upstage of the alter (table with candles and stuff), and the Bride and Groom were underneath downstage the alter.  The Rabbi did the normal prayers we here at most weddings but he really did a nice job when he went into his speech about what marriage was like and how it should effect the couple.  He used analogies that were personalized to Eric and Lisa.  Eric and Lisa both do marathons and triathlons and travel.  Lisa loves Dancing with the Stars and the Rabbi effectively used all of it., so much that she had a hard time not giggling, but it was very cute.

After the ceremony was complete, we had cocktail hour in one of the gardens which was great.  The bride and groom came out and walked around which took the place of the receiving line.  That....was a great idea.  The wait staff came around with amazing Hors d'ourvers like scallops, crab cakes, sushi, and mini cheeseburgers.  Usually, wedding appetizers are real crap but I swear these were delicious or maybe they were better because there were three full bars around the garden with all the good liquor and wine.   They had Grey Goose, so that's all I needed.

When we finally went back to the tent the tables and the band were setup.  The tables were square which was perfect, and the plates were those beautiful Japanese style square plates.  The food was amazing, prime rib and a blackened salmon with an a gratin potatoes and steamed squash.  It was delicious.  The cake, actually...it wasn’t a wedding cake but a tree of cupcakes from their favorite bakery.  What an awesome idea.  Different kinds too, like banana chocolate chip, chocolate, vanilla, carrot, and a few other frosting and cake mixes.  The whole thing was set-up so the bride and groom could actually enjoy themselves.  We danced a few numbers between each course and after the parents made speeches and the bride and groom said a few words, it turned into just a huge party.  The ten piece band was amazing and we just rocked out.  After a little while of dancing and sweating Kim and I took a little stroll by the water and just listened and out of the corner of my eye I saw the wait staff carrying trays again.  I wouldn't believe it if I didn't see it.  They had this miniature ice cream cones with waffle cones and they were good.  I never saw that before and then I was trumped again.  They came around with flutes of milk and warm chocolate chip cookies.  Have you ever even heard of that?

So, as you can tell, it was amazing and it was a fairy tale.  On our way home, it thunder stormed again.  Yeah, that is right...it stopped raining long enough for the wedding and it started as we all were departing.  I think the wedding was made to happen.  Something or someone bigger than all of had this wedding in mind.

The brunch was very sweet.  Grandma Phyllis did a wonderful job and everyone came.  It just was an amazing weekend.

The next episode I hope to put up some photos of the first couple of photo shoots I have done.

Till then.....Love, Life, Happiness and Success!!!

"Everything that is really great and inspiring is created by the individual who can labor in freedom." - Albert Einstein

The Spanish Panic

I was honored to be in the chorus of "Los Gavilanos" at the Tampa Bay Performing Arts Center last night.  I witnessed an amazing ensemble of talent brought together for one performance of an art form that, for all things considered, is dead here in America.  It is labeled a Zarzuela and I can only define it as a Spanish Opera. 

What I do love about it is that it is very positive.  No one ever dies, and it always has a happy ending.  While it might be trite, simple and might seem to be irrelevant, the music and lyrics are amazing.  The company brought in the two leads, Raphael and Ilyia who had voices that made me cringe with envy.  They both have traveled the world singing and have CDs and live a very good life doing what they life.

Of course there were other incredible talents as well, Noemi as the ingénue, Anna and my partner Rosemary as the sisters, Tara as the friend, Renee, Roberto, and of course the spectacular Jorge as the town leaders.  These were all extremely memorable performances.  Noemi has a voice that will move your heart in ways that could never be understood. 

The most interesting story comes from the Tenor of this story.  A contract went out a year ago for this performance to a professional out of Mexico; Leonardo.  Well, when he showed up he was a little unprepared which due to the extremely condensed rehearsal process really unnerved some of us.  Three days before the performance the producers of the show decided to replace him with a Humberto which we were hoping was going to happen because you haven't heard a tenor until you have heard Humberto sing.  He took this role he learned in three days and turned it into the most spectacular display of emotion and music of I have witnessed from back stage.  Humberto literally brought tears to my eyes during a scene when he is pleading with Noemi to elope and run away with him to escape her being sold to a loveless marriage.  It was an experience and a half for me.  I was in the chorus, a narrator and a featured dancer but still very minor, and it was totally worth it.

Prior to this performance I was honored to be a part of a cabaret at Maestro's also at TBPAC.  It was basically a fundraiser and a replacement show for Gigi which could not be done because it became too expensive for the company.  So they did an afternoon lunch for their season ticket holders.  They called it "April in Paris" and it was a set of songs with French origination.  A couple of numbers in French and Spanish but the rest were in English from Les Miz and Phantom and of course Gigi.  It was fun, but unfortunately I was the weak link in the ensemble. 

I don't know what it is.  I can jump out of a plane, be stuck in a war zone, lead a team of people through an extremely difficult project, be completely naked on stage, but for some reason I can not gain any confidence in singing solo in front of  an audience.  When I sing at home, I swear to you, it sounds good and sometimes really good.  I just have this inferiority complex about my singing and I cannot seem to get rid of it.  I know if I can just relax it would sound just as good as anyone in that ensemble, with the exception of Humberto, and well, Jill.  I am not exaggerating I swear.  I know how I gained confidence in my acting, I did a lot of it.  Unfortunately, you have to be good to be in a musical or a cabaret but to get good I have to perform more and be prepared to fail.  Who is going to hire someone that needs the experience?  And Karaoke…forget about it.  I could sing with a piano no problem, but tracks on a karaoke machine throw me.  Does anyone have any ideas?

I think that should do it for this episode.  Remember to tell your friends and love ones that you love them.  It will mean a lot to them and you, because life is short.  Don't let the obstacles of life stop you from what you want to do.

Love, Life, Happiness and Success!!

-Brad

“Our ultimate freedom is the right and power to decide how anybody or anything outside ourselves will affect us.” - Stephen Covey

Life can be too short

I woke up pretty excited today. The plan was to hang out at the Outback Pro-am and be outside and hang out with some friends.  I was finishing some emails and playing with Mogwai, who turned 1 today, when I got a phone call from my friend Carl.  After a bit of yammering and catching up he then dropped the bomb that changed something internally.

Basically, a brother of good friend that we have in common, lost his wife on Tuesday.  When the news spilled out of the phone into my ear I literally lost my footing and hit the ground.  Talk about a shock.  Then the aftershock.  This didn't happen because of an auto accident, or an illness that could possibly of been forecasted.  She literally sat in a chair, had a heart attack and died.  Twenty-nine years old with no history or family history of heart problems.  Nothing to indicate that this could happen.  My friend was at his parents’ house and couldn't seem to contact her, and of course just thought she was busy, but when five o'clock rolled around with no phone call and no email, he headed home.  He contacted his neighbor who had to jump a fence and break into the house, called 911 but it was too late.

Three thoughts came across my mind.  1) How is he and what is his state of mind? 2) Where is he and who is with him? and 3) I am glad I am not him.  I felt guilty about the third thought and that it came so quickly.  I was assured it was normal, but it really didn't make me feel better.  I cannot even fathom what he is going through.  After a couple of texts and voicemails to his brother, my friend, I was told the story and where everyone was.  So, we showered and left.

Three hours later we walked into a crowded house in Vero Beach where the mood was light, but somber.  I saw my friend who I haven't seen since he and his wife and son left for Chicago.  Carl and family and the rest of this clan, but no sign of my friends brother.  Later on he walked in and I hugged him.  I gave him every last bit of healing energy I could.  "If I could take your pain away", I thought, "I would."  We hung out and just enjoyed the company.  I felt good he had so many people around that cared for him and wife so much.  I just don't feel good for him next week, when everyone goes back to work and he has to spend so much time with nothing but his thoughts.

It really made me think though.  It is so important to tell the people we love how much we care for them, and how much they mean to us.  All of them, from you significant other, all the way to the person you work with that you tend to connect with.  Then, it's time to get affairs in order.  Who would it affect if you died tomorrow?  How would your bills get paid?  Who would end up being responsible for them?  Is there someone you wish to take care of in the event of your death?  How do you want your body dispositioned?  Do you want to donate organs?  What if you were determined to be in a coma and the outcome is bleak that you will ever come out?  Do you want the expenses to pile up on your loved ones or do you wish to be terminated?  All these things sound morbid, but they are very important. 

My family has a lot of longevity.  I have blood relatives who are over 90 and still golf eighteen holes three to four times a week.  My family has buried more centurions than I can count.  This being the case I always thought I had time, to figure a lot of things out.  Mary dying the way she did, shows me there are a lot of friends I need to talk to and a lot of affairs I need to get in order.  Wow...I am just still in shock.

Mogwai turned one year old today.  Tomorrow is the first anniversary of Jamali's death.  Today I mourned with my friends for a family member.  Tomorrow I sing at TBPAC.  If that isn't the epitome of an emotional roller coaster I don't know what is.

Do me a favor, please?  Hug your significant other.  Tell your parents you love them.  Mention how much your friends mean to you.  You never know if you will ever get the chance again.  Life is too short.

LOVE, LIFE, HAPPINESS & SUCCESS!!

-Brad

Not Your Mama's Yoga

Five AM came pretty quick this morning, but to no avail I did get up, and put the DVD in the player and started my workout.  Imagine my shock when the timer on the TV started counting back from 1 hour and 32 minutes.  Of course I said, ok a lot of slow moving stretching so it just will be a bit little longer.    YEAH!! RIGHT!!  Let’s call it slow moving, stretching, balancing, strength conditioning torture.  I think this was the hardest workout of them all.

I knew I was out of shape, hence the reason to start the program in the first place, but this kicked my ever-loving ass.  Mentally, I felt like I was about an inch tall, but to be honest, physically I felt pretty good.  Limber, energized, centered.  There is something to say for this Yoga thing.  I have been through yoga classes before and they were hard, but they were a half hour long.  This was a pure 90 minutes of totally engaged muscles.  It is going to be a while before I can say that I enjoy it, but somewhere down the line, of course saying that I do not give up, I think I might like it. 

I was a dancer for quite a while, so I am used to getting razzed for taking part in something that can be perceived as demasculating.  Well, there is no way for that perception to appear for this "Yoga X" program.  If it does, then you haven't tried it.  From the warm-up to the cool down I was sweating, and my heart rate was up and I didn’t move from a 4 foot radius.

Other than that, I am still pushing along on day 5.  The diet thing is a little tougher than I remember.  Not that it is tough to eat, just as often as I like.  I just dive in to work so intensely I actually forget to eat.  I ended up, putting reminders on my calendar at work so a window pups up every 2-3 hours and says "EAT!!:.  Isn't that funny?  Next thing you know I am going to be doing the same thing to remind myself to go to the restroom.

Did anyone watch the series of "The Biggest Loser"?  This season was amazing.  I mean I have seen some of the episodes in the past and the people on the show really make some great progress, but not memorable.  This season there was this woman, Ali, who got there with her mother and she was about 240 pounds and maybe five foot three.  Well, when she ended the show, she was around 120 pounds and she was cut and absolutely gorgeous.  The whole thing happened in 21 weeks with just diet and exercise.   It was a true testament to eating clean and working out.  I'll never even doubt the basics don't work.  I mean 21 weeks from obese to sculpted.  Incredible!!  There were 5 guys that had almost the same transformation.  Mark, Dan, Jay, Rodger and Justin.  Justin couldn't even get health insurance because he was over 350 lbs at the finale he as around 220 and ripped up.  I just think if there are people that let themselves go, but realized it and decided to make the change, that anyone can make a change for anything in their life no matter their age, sex and race.  We really do create our own destiny.

Rehearsals are going well, we have one more tonight and the benefit is on Sunday, then I continue on with Los Galinos which only rehearses a couple times a week.  If there is anything else out there that anyone is auditioning for, please let me know.  I am dying to get jump into an actual character.

Have a wonderful weekend.

Life, Health, Happiness & Success

-Brad

Quick Blog before work

The blogs are going to get more frequent I hope.  Just to catch you up.  We went to Andy and Jesse's wedding last weekend.  It was a blast.  We shared a room with Craig and Erin which was a first.  We got a long great, we ate well, and saw an amazing ceremony.  It even took me back to Fiddler since Jesse did circles around Andy.  Of course she claimed it would get her too dizzy so Andrew split the seven circles with her.  Yeah it was quite entertaining.  They both got up and sang at the reception and we all know what a wonderful singer Andy is but who knew that Jesse had a pair of pipes as well.  She was great!!!  So bar a few transportation problems the wedding weekend was really nice.

Work has been extremely busy and challenging of which I am still really having a good time.

I am back in rehearsal for a couple of concerts.  I am singing a couple of solos for a benefit at TBPAC and singing in a the chorus for a Spanish Opera called Los Giliantos.  I am putting my phonetic skills to the test.

Now the big challenge:  everyone knows I have problems following through on things I do myself.  If other people are involved or its work related this problem is non-existent, but when it comes to me, I let myself down more often than not.  So, I am challenging myself for 90 days.  I started a home workout program called P90X and it is just as tough as any workout I did in the military.  I am just working so much right now that I am not getting in any exercise so I started yesterday with the first workout about noon, and this morning was the second at 5.  This is when I start thinking about quitting because I am so sore.  If I can just get through the next two weeks I will not be as sore after each workout and the dizziness and nausea will subside.  So I figure if I let you all know what I am doing, then maybe Ill trick myself into thinking I need to follow up because I am staying accountable to you.

I just feel old right now.  I go to work, I come home, or maybe rehearsal I go to bed.  That's my life and on the weekends, I watch movies and do household crap.  I am tired of it.  I want to start living again.  So, here is where I start.  Maybe it will work maybe it won’t.

SO TODAY:
Plyometrics - its basically a lot lateral jumping and a lot of squats and lunges mixed in.  VERY TOUGH.  I made it all the way through except for the last set where I was starting to feel dizzy and sick.  So I stopped.  No problems next week Ill do the whole hour. 

Yesterday - Chest, Back and Abs.  Made it through all of the chest and back, but really felt sick about 3/4s the way through abs.  Just the first couple of days.  Next week I wont have that excuse.

Ok, so have a wonderful day and week everyone.

LOVE, HEALTH, HAPPINESS and SUCCESS!!!

-Brad

An amazing revelation

When was the last time you can remember actually being excited about going to work?  Can you remember?  Has it ever happened that you wake up prior to the alarm going off wondering if you were going to be TOO EARLY?  I have to tell you that for the last four weeks, I have been in awe of the motivation and pure focus that has engulfed me.

I started this position with an open mind, but I have to be honest it was a little bit of a salary cut, so I considered using it as a stumbling block.  That, ladies and gentlemen, has completely been washed by the pure excitement I have for this position.  Are there stressful days, long hours and situations I would rather not be in?  Of course, but it's challenging and the people I work with are amazing. 

Let me give you some background.  First of all, I have the title of Program Manager of the client facing team for the Infrastructure Consolidation Program at JP Morgan Chase.  I know, I know the first thing your probably wondering is, what the hell does that mean?  In simple terms, I manage a staff of four team leads who each have a team of eight project managers.  We have the responsibility of migrating over eight hundred clients from older, legacy platforms to upgraded and more secure systems.  I not only have the responsibility to make sure that all of our resources are taken care of but I only interface with technology, product and sales teams in order to move the clients within a specific time frame.  Basically, all of the clients are my responsibilty to be transitioned over the course of the project.  It is a huge challange and with also helping to lead the technology team to create a tracking tool that specifially meets the need of the program the challanges just keep getting more plentiful.  And you know....I am happier than I have been in a long time at work.  It's not that I haven't enjoyed my other projects, but it has been a really long time since I have been this happy at work.

So, it finally answers the question, can a huge paycheck make you happy?  Is financial security worth being miserable 10-12 hours a day, no matter how long the project is?  Sure, I am not making the amount I was making in New York, but I am happy and it's worth it. 

There is only one more thing that would make the way my life is more complete.  To be back on stage again.  To go from being excited at work to a rehearsal and acting again, well that would be....hmmm....I don't know if I can put that into words.  Maybe I can....I would say it can be defined as.....ORGASMIC!!!!

Love, life, peace and success!!!

-Brad

 

"Ambition is the germ from which all growth of nobleness proceeds." - Oscar Wilde

Interesting Opinions

Things have been kind of quiet on the "Brad Front" lately.  Unfortunately, it gives me time to ponder, and that, my friends, is never good.  With the new presidential election on the home front, the war still taking place and all of the constant negativity in the media, I cannot help to think how good we really have it.  I mean as Americans, we really have a pretty good deal.

This thought process actually started after seeing a little movie titled, "Rambo".  I know, I know a good number of you reading this are enjoying a good laugh right now.  The movie was riddled with violence, blood and gore, but it was realistic.  Granted, I have been one of the few (well, one of the 80 or 90 million) audience members that enjoy his characters once in a while, but this one was directed brilliantly in my opinion.  Stallone wanted to make a statement with this movie, but understood in order to do that he also needed to stay within the confines of the franchise, so of course John Rambo wins in the end.  (If you haven't seen it I apologize, but I am sure it doesn't come as a shock.)  The movie opens with real footage from Burma where barbarians calling themselves the military, rape and murder their own for sport.  This goes on today.  Right now as you are reading this there could possibly be a village being burned to the ground and women and children with it.  The whole thing erupted emotions of anger, sadness, and helplessness.  Then I think about our lives as Americans and how everywhere I look people are complaining about our life here.  Even worse, I am one of them.

What is so bad?  A country where 70 percent of the families own homes, 95.4 percent are employed.  A place where if your house starts to burn a group of government workers show up and do everything in their power to salvage everything possible.  We live in a place where it is against the law for a hospital not to treat you, even if you cannot pay for it.  In Tampa, I cannot go for 3 miles where there is not a grocery store that I do not see in one isle enough food to feed a third-world village.  The idea, that anyone in this country can express their opinion in public and not get arrested.  These things happen in other countries, I have seen it. 

The media is starting to really piss me off.  There is a lot of good going on in this world and especially here in America and it's not acknowledged.  For every positive story in the newspaper, news website or network news program, there seems to be 15 to 20 negative ones.  Why is that?  Blood and chaos sells.  We like it, we live for it.  Why do people slow down and rubberneck when there is a horrible car crash?  I wonder all the time. Why does anyone want to fill their head with a picture of death?   I cannot figure it out.  When I was younger, I was naive to think people looked over at an accident to see if there was anything they could possibly do to help.  What a wakeup call I had when I moved to DC and accidents were more frequent and wondered what the hell everyone was looking at.  Just curious?  If there is an accident what the hell is everyone trying to see?  The media uses that "chaos curiosity" to sell their product. Look at the ads for the candidates, listen to their speeches are they really focusing on the issues?  You know why they aren't?  Because they are too busy trying to tear each other down.  What is worse, the media is not striving to dig up the positive pieces that each candidate has done, but instead spends countless hours digging up the dirt of the past.  Is just seems ass backwards to me.  Wouldn't it be an interesting election if America was wondering which one of the candidates have done and/or will do the most good instead of which candidate is the lesser evil?

I know I am really ranting, but I am lucky.  I live in a country where I can sit in my house, pay for the internet with a job I have, use the electricity that is directly connected to my home, to power the computer I own and write opinions to rant however and whatever I please.

LOVE, PEACE, HAPPINESS & SUCCESS!!!!

-Brad